மூச்சு!

அருகினில், நீ அமர்கையில் வாங்கிடும் மூச்சிற்கு

இருதுளை நாசிதான் எப்படி போதும், என் சுவாசமே?

தேகம் முழுதும்,

தோல் துவரங்கள் சில இலட்சமும்

சுவாசிக்கும் மனித தவளையென நான் மாறினும் தான்

எப்படி போதுமடி?

மூச்சும் ஓர் புறம் திணறிட,

என்னில் அடங்கிய,

எண்ணில் அடங்கா நரம்புகள்

பிண்ணிய தோரனயில் என் தேகம்

அசைய மறுத்து தான் அங்கேயே

கிடந்திடுமே,

- உயிர் சடலம்.

ஒரு வழியாய் நானும்

சுயம் அறியும் முன்னே,

உன் தேகம் தீண்டியதொரு தென்றல்

எனையும் தழுவிட,

உறைந்திடாது எப்படி ஓடிடும் உதிரம், என் உடலினில்.

மூளைக்கும் பய்ந்திடுமோ ஓர் துளி? இனி மெல்ல,

நினைவுகள் நழுவிட, மெதுவாய்

கண்களும் சொருகிட, நானும்

மயங்கியே விழுந்திட, கொடுப்பாய்

உன் மடியினை.

ஒளி தா!

சூரிய உலையில் சிலிகானும் உபரியும் உருக்கி

அண்டம் கொள்ளா பந்தினை படைத்தான்

கண்ணாடி பந்தினை படைத்தான்.

பல கோடி நூறாண்டுகள் கையினில் தாங்கி

தானே தன் கையால் பட்டையும் தீட்டி

பாரில் இல்லா பளபளப்பும் பூசி, ஒளியும் சேர்த்தான்,

மின்னிடும் ஒளியும் சேர்த்தான்.

வெற்று வானில்,

பல ஒளிஆண்டுகள் தொலைவில்,

சிறு கதிரும் தப்பிடா இருளினில்,

தனிமையில்

மின்னும் பந்திற்கோர் வண்ணம் சேர்த்தான்,

கரிய ஓர் வண்ணம் சேர்த்தான்…

கருவினில்,

நீ தோன்றிய பொழுதினில்,

உன் விழியினில்

அதைப் பதித்தான், படைத்தவன் உன்

விழியினில் அதை பதித்தான்.

அவன் தன் கைவண்ணம் நான் வியக்க வேண்டி, முன்னே,

என் கண் முன்னே உனையும் நிறுத்திச் சென்றான்;

பார்த்தேன்; புகழ்ந்தேன்.

அவன் திறன் புகழ்ந்தேன்.

’அருகினில் சென்று

ஆராய்வாய்!’ என்று

ஆசையும் தூண்டிட, நெருங்கினேன்,

அருகினில் நெருங்கினேன்.

அகில பிரபஞ்சமும்

அதிலேச் ஓர் புள்ளியும்

என எனையும் காட்டிற்றே!

உன் விழி தான் எனையும் காட்டிற்றே.

உறைந்தே, சிலை என நான் நின்ற நேரம்,

இமை திரை வீழ்த்தி விழியினை அடைத்தாய்,

என் உலகமே!

அந்நொடி முதல் என் உலகமே இருண்டதே.

இருளினில் இன்றும், இன்னல்கள் கொள்கிறேன்,

விழியினை நீயும் என்றடி திறப்பாய், தீபமே, என்

சிறு உலகும் மீண்டும் ஒளி பெற?

பதில் கடிதம் தொடுப்பாய்!

மணிக்கொரு கடிதம் மனதினில் முடித்து;

செல்லும் இடமெல்லாம் அதை தான் சுமந்து

நீ இல்லா இடம் எல்லாம் இருப்பதாய் நடித்து

வருடங்கள் பல கொடுத்தும் வந்தேன், என் கவியே!

நீ என்று பதில் கடிதம் தொடுப்பாய் என்றே!

Travelogue 2 - The Nagala TREK (2 of 2)

(contd. from here)

Mesmerising, the sight was, on the other side of the slope. A pond with trees long dead, standing stiff and slanting with their twin reflections on the serene water.

'In the Jungle, the mighty jungle, the lion sleeps tonight' was playing aloud in my head while we entered the real jungle.

Then we reached the first Pool (in fact that was the first and last pool for my trek). But, the trekkers on other adventure treks go beyond this and more.

Disappointed. And why?

Shouldn't the sight of a pool have excited me, for I'm from 'Chennai' who gets to see large water resources to be either salty or just due to poor maintenance of the drainage system.

I'll tell you why I the disappointment was.

It had rained the previous night and the pond water was thoroughly disturbed. The water in itself was too dark and dusty.

Having seen the photographs of the previous trekkers paying with the tiny fishes which comes and nibbles their feet this was definitely not the sight I expected.

Would you not be disappointed if you look at an iPhone in the ad and get a 'Grahambell' invented model telephone for the same price from the same showroom with same name. Deceived I was, not by the organizers (no, they're cool) but by nature.

Peter, Tilak and few other experienced trekkers and organisers discussed for a minute and started to unpack their backs, taking out all the balloons and inflated the tubes for the kids.

Even before I could think if they will find another better pool, everyone was in the pool. Yes, the very same, dirty, stirred, black pond to have the best times of their lives.

Watching everyone so excited and splashing the water over each other, laughing out loud, shouting and screaming while escaping from the ones trying to splash water on them, I, with regret threw myself in the pond like everyone else.

I was floating with the help of the tubes (though I could swim like a rock, I didn't want to show off my swimming skills) which were originally meant for kids.

I realised, water is more like a bunch of good friends. When we are surrounded by them, we find ourselves being happy for no reason at all.

Few came forward to teach me to swim but I was just floating with the help of the tubes and went on asking them, 'Am I swimming, now? okay, now? hey, how about now?'.

Well, at least they were able to bear the nuisance to an aspiring swimmer all well.

Enjoyed it.

Swimmers turned Divers:

Then the swimmers became divers. After failing in swimming, I wanted to try diving while a mighty hand of fear held my heart so firm that it wouldn't ebb as the my body hits the water.

Despite the warning from the experienced, I got ready for my first dive.

So, the fearless Penguin, with the Tube around it, climbed up the rock and stood third in a queue for its turn with a second thought of backing off.

Finally, My turn! My turn! My turn!

Before jumping though, I made a request to one in the pool to immediately look for me if he doesn't see my head on the surface within 10 seconds.

And then went the great jump (or the great fall as it should be professionally termed).

Weeeeeeeeeeee!

A few seconds on air and then a sudden thud I heard, as my ears were already filled with water and went a few inches deep into the pool. The pond on the other side, where the diving happens was deeper and thanks to the tube for I reached the surface while still alive.

In 2 minutes I was not to be found anywhere in the pond, for... 'hey! look over there, on top of the rock! there I was, again for my next fall.'

Fell/Jumped again and again and again and again and...

While other did somersault and more acrobatics I wanted to do a straight dive, you know, head first. I know the first time one wouldn't get it right and I was no exception, at least the damage was not severe.

Hit! Hurt! pained and suffered! but was fun.

Then again I went up the rock and would I try to dive again? No. Jump! Jump, you little froggy, keep jumping!

On the other side of the pond people sat under a very small stream which flowed like a mini fountain where the force was stronger.

Sitting under it was like visually seeing one's favourite Music flowing inside the body and their musical symbols floating around slowly loudly and softly. The force that crushes ones ego making him weak and fills him with peace and builds him up stronger than he was before.

It would be safe to just say that the peace and calmness experienced then was and will never (I hope against it, though) be experienced anywhere else and in anything else.

Humbled in front of the might of water.

When even the voice of one's own mind is not heard, BLISS, it was indeed!

***end***

Travelogue 2 - The Nagala TREK (1 of 2)

This, in fact, should have been the first travelogue.

Like many who want to feel the Adrenaline rush in their vein, I did, and that was probably the only reason for me to opt for a trek experience.

As recommended by a good fiend, I joined the Chennai Trekking Club (CTC) which is a large group of trekkers.

By nature, I'm a person who would desire to do a lot and end giving it up because of lack of information (or lack of interest in getting to know) to go forward. But, this was a different story. The details were too easy to obtain.

So, I went online; joined the CTC google groups.

I'm put up closer to Perambur, Chennai.

The available meeting points were,
1. Thiruvanmiyur at 5.30 am
2. Koyambedu (C.M.B.T) at 6.30 am
3. Periyar Nagar (near Perambur) at 7.30 am

Since 'CMBT' was the name familiar to me than 'Periyar Nagar' (though it's within 5 km), so I chose '5.30 am in CMBT'.

'FINALLY, for the first time, I'm really gonna go on a trek; climb the mountains; walk into the wilderness; plunge my blessed face into the cold water, preserved in the roots, flowing along.'

Excited I was, living it all in the dreamy land. The night didn't seem to move on. Excitement let me not to fall asleep.

Rose, I, with an excitement that hasn't spilled an ounce; packed and was ready by 4.30.

For everyone the trek started by 8.30 am. but for me it started by 4.30 am. right when I stepped out of the house.

I was perfectly ready for the trek in a Black T-Shirt, Army-Green Tracks and a Bloody Red cap to meet the team at CMBT. (try not to visualize - for your own safety!)

15 minutes past, no bus turned up. 30 minutes and an hour past, none.

It was 6 and I was sure even if I get a bus after that I would not reach the boarding point but hey said they could wait upto 6.45 which was still not a possible time for me to reach there. Regretted the decision of choosing to go on a trek. Cursed everyone who recommended me to take a bus at this time and called the coordinator.

I was adivised to join them in Periyar Nagar directly at 8 am for that is closer to Perambur. Took an auto to 'Agaram' which was just 10 mins away and from there I walked for 15 minutes to find a bank as mentioned by the Tilak (another coordinator).

"Stand in from of the bank, your back facing the bank. Now you will find the road split into three. One on the right and one ahead of you and the last on your left. Take the one towards the left", these were the directions given, like one instructs a 10 year old.

I kept walking and it was almost  7 when I saw a Black Scorpio pass me and a very good speed, followed by a few cars at regular gaps.

While I was thinking if this is a part of the 'Trek Team' one car stopped near me and a guy with spectacles and a Shorts with a mobile in his hand got out of the car asking if I was the one who kept on calling asking for directions.

With my identity confirmed as a nuisance caller they took me in and within 50 feet the cars came to a halt. The boarding point, that was.

A place which I could have reached in (10 minutes in auto + 15 minutes of walk) nearly 25 minutes for which I have spent (30 minutes walk to Perambur bus stand + 5 minutes walk to Railway station + the 25 minutes of actual travel and slightly over a whole hour of waiting) around 2 hours and 30 plus minutes.

Applauding (silently) my own self for my geographical knowledge, I joined the group.

Then the engines started with three to four kids in each car, we started from the HOME of those kids.

There were new places, narrow roads, little huts, smaller buildings, variety of flora and a lot.

A feeling was there! Peace! Happiness and joy!

After reaching the spot we climbed a slope with everyone assigned a kid to be taken care of. 'Roja' was the little girl, whom I had to take care of though out the trek. There was a group shot taken once everyone climbed the first slope. (probably for the 'Before and After trek' or whatever)

(contd. here)